today's the day

today the wife and i are going to the hospital to have her induced. today (hopefully) i will get to meet the SON. though i am really tired i am bursting with energy. won't be long now.

RANDOMNESS: Let not your hair grow long, it may hinder you from seeing your dreams come true.

Happy Sad

i have a bit of a happy sad moment going on right now. i just finished my last class for this year. so far it has been my favorite class. i feel like it caused me to grow more than any other class thus far. i am going to miss the people i had class with. hopefully i will see them again in another class or out in the field. i am happy though because i am another step closer to being done with grad school. part of me doesn't want it to end, just like undergrad. sometimes i really dislike change. just when i get used to something it gets stripped away and something else takes its place. Thoughts?

RANDOM PHRASE: Jeremiah was a bullfrog!!!

check out this photo

i feel like this photo could mean something. i just don't know what. shoot me some comments. in other news, i am tired but extremely excited. tomorrow is the last scheduled ultrasound for our baby. i can't wait to meet him but i am also very terrified about it. what if i am no good for him? what if i become my biological father? hmmm....

RANDOM PHRASE: Apparently you have no feet sir.

do you remember?

do you all remeber when time was simpler and slower? i always seemed to have too much time on my hands as a youth. is this a sign of aging.... maturing? i hope not. for those of you who know me best, i am not one for maturity. i like hanging loose and relaxing. respondsibility is a dirty word for me. i mean i'm notlazy, i just WANT to be lazy. i long for my boyish days that are now lost to me. i didn't have such a great childhood and i had to grow up really fast. maybe that has something to do with it. in any case, i am here now and with less time than before i caution you all to take the time to live your short lives well.


RANDOM PHRASE: I want your boyfriend and i thought you should know.

Look what I did.

I was having an impromptu date night with the wife last night. We went to a Tex Mex place called Don Pablo's. For any of you who don't know, their food is AWESOME. It has soooooo much flavor (shudders). I LITERALLY SHUDDERED AT THE THOUGHT OF THE AWESOMENESS THAT WAS PLACED BEFORE ME AT THAT RESTAURANT LAST NIGHT. I am so glad i have left overs for lunch today. anywho, this blog isn't about Don Pablo's as much as it is about a poem i wrote while looking one piece of their decor. the inside of the restaurant looks like an old brick warehouse. on the inside it has "authentic" mexican murals and old advertising pieces along with some neon lights and plastic (at least i think so) plants. despite the lights it is rather dim to set the 'mood' for the patrons. one of the murals was of two mexican women drinking some sort of cola. they were wearing traditional mexican clothing. The mural moved me so much that i decided to write about it. this is that poem: FORCES OF TIME four shining Gems edged in a cliff ancient faces against ancient brick seeming thinly veiled though inches thick perhaps they stare at something more personalities intact and completely two dimensional hiding the hurt from a day's work behind sugary sweet brown liquid tipping the bottle, a sign of victory complete finished is the toil until the bottom of the bottle is revealed I am being watched by four shining Gems edged in a cliff How did you like it? I felt really good after i did it. I really enjoy sharing my poems with you my readers. I have another question: Do you think I should try to publish a book of my poems? I have a friend who knows somebody. Maybe it could be done. Alas, I am very lazy and need some shoving into something like this. I welcome criticism. RANDOM PHRASE: What do my eyes see? I see little balls of sunshine in a bag.

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december baby

wow. its been awhile. good news since last we met. the wife is almost done with out newest pregnancy. i shall call the son. the son is well ahead in growth. will most likely be born this month. this is a good way to show restoration since we lost our first pregnancy on december of last year. one year can make all the difference. i don't have much to say, i will no longer keep promising more posts. usually the only time i find myself in front of the computer is to di projects for grad school. oh yeah thats new too. yay me. wish i had more for ya. maybe next time. goodbye and God bless. Random Quote: "Eat chalk evil doer!"

will over the exterior

all of mankind is cursed with at least one thing: the exterior world. man has constantly sought to possess, destroy, tame, harvest, and control the rest of the world. one has to question how good for mankind this is. as much "progress" as we claim to have made the world is still a horrid place. no matter how much we try to lasso in this bronco we just end up hurting more than helping. as i have pondered on this i have come to a startling conclusion, even if we try to change and work with others and purify ourselves from this outlook, we won't be able to "fix" our current situation. let's say we stop all pollution and stop all the wars and the hate. we will still be at this point in time. the world and ourselves are already doomed to the inevitable death that claimed those that came before. there is really only one thing that can change that, although man will argue about this until the end of the world. i personally bank on the fact that Jesus has already saved us, we just have to claim that. some others believe something or someone else will save them from their doom and there are others still who think no one and nothing is coming to save us. i have one question for them, what do you base your morality on. what/who deems things right/wrong? if you say the government then we shouldn't fight other governments ans countries because they would believe the opposite of us and can't they be right? what about you? do you decide what's right and wrong? then why am i not bowing before you? what makes you so right and unadulterated? no matter what you chose your choice can be turned back on you unless you have a divine basis for your decisions and morality otherwise we are simply animals undeserving of society and group accomplishments. disagree or agree i want you to sound off in the comments below.

randomness: you keep using that word, i don't think it means what you think it means.

i am gonna hafta stop

i am gonna hafta stop promising things. i know i said i would write more but i haven't been (obviously). much has happened since the last post. lets see. i am still in south carolina and working at Lowe's. the wife and i were expecting a few months ago but unfortunately we had a miscarriage. Leaf you will be missed. the wife is about halfway done with grad school and i will hopefully start in july. we are also about to move to a new place (still in the same town). i feel like i am stagnating and i am glad for the move coming up and the return of school in my life. i will only be taking one class at a time so that i can still work full time. our new place is cheaper and closer to work and school. i would really like to continue writing here but i will NOT promise it. i guess that just about do it.


randomness: i used to be an adventurer like you, until i took an arrow to the knee.

I would be working if....

Not to say that my job doesn't need me. This place would probably fall apart if it didn't have me (at least until they found another poor sap to fill my shoes). Something cleaning related COULD happen, but it usually doesn't. Not right now anyways. This is the slow season for my place of work. Sales are dropping a bit so pretty much everyone is taking it easy. Such as me. I am currently blogging. If they needed me they know how to get me. This job isn't too challenging for me anymore. It used to push me out of my comfort zone, but now I am at peace. But that is not to say I like here, on the contrary. I hate working here. It is demeaning. I wish i had an escape. That's why I try to find something to, so I don't think too hard on the fact that I loath being here. At least I get weekends off.......... I just want to be at home with the wife. That's all for now.


RANDOM PHRASE: What I'd like to know, would anyone eat a spider, I would.

Ah yes, friends

This weekend, and even, this moment the wife and I are having good friends with us. I am going to keep this brief, so i can still entertain them. I am having a lot of fun. gotta go.

RANDOM PHRASE: Do you know how you know if you are over the mouth of Hell? .... Tiny bathrooms.

Death of a Zombie

I love killing zombies. That is a statement of fact. It doesn't matter what game, if it has zombie killing I am almost always required to like that game. I just recently purchased resident evil 5 gold edition. YAY!!! Zombies galore. Now i just need to find someone to play the game with. It is a good game solo, even better with a friend. btw i am having a lot of fun here in hotlanta. tomorrow the fam and i are going to the renaissance festival. i haven't been there since 6th grade. It should be more fun now then it was back then. any way, what things have you done in the past that you think would be more now then it was at that time? comment plz.

RANDOM PHRASE: Trust me, I may not be as big as you but I can certainly hold my own...

It's been a long time

I can't believe this. It has been too long. Well I am going to just divulge what happened today. I was doing work like normal when I was asked to go on delivery. That is all fine and dandy, except it caused me to be at work for almost 11 hours!!!!! I am there from 6 to 3. but not today!! Anyway i am very tired now. at least i know that i will be getting overtime pay. i can't wait for this weekend. I am going to my sister-in-law's place with the wife. My mother-in-law will be there and we will celebrate mother's day. i look forward to this weekend, even though i know it is going to be a little stressful and very tiring. I just need to get out of greenville for awhile. FYI i am not very thrilled about living in this city. I don't hate greenville, i just don't like living in a city this size. I would rather live in a small town. the yards are too small here. there is no privacy. I feel confined, trapped even. but then again, we are all trapped. trapped by our destiny, even the destinies that we think we are planning for ourselves. .... it seems that i am ranting. i am going to stop here..... nevermind... i am going to stop here.

RANDOM PHRASE: Oh for God's sake he's gone for two days and he joins a gang.

And then somehow something happened and then we got away

Hey there adoring fans! I have had a good weekend. well except for one thing. this is a thing that has haunted me for a good chunk of my life. Long before i married my wife (the most terrific person in the world) i became addicted to pornography. Although i do my best to abstain, sometimes i am tempted. I love my wife and God. I will do everything in my power (and God's) to be holy. I will deal with this. anywho, on to lighter things. I have a good weekend. on saturday, i hung out with my family because my brother just recently turned 19. The wife and i got him a gamestop card. and we also got my mother flowers, because we hadn't given her her mother's day gift from last year! It was a good visit. then that night, we had my wife's cousin and husband over to play video games and hang out. yes, this weekend has been good to me, for more reasons than i can list. any way, i am sleepy and i am watching golden girls with the wife, so good night all.

Random Phrase: You haven't seen anything till you've seen a frustrated cow.

Gargoyle is a fun word

So a few good things happened today. I finally got my W-2 today. Yay. The wife and i are getting a pretty good tax return. Too bad all that is going to student loans. The wife and I also fixed up the car. Too bad we are just going to have to replace the duct tape in about a month (that's right, I said/typed duct tape). I found out when my insurance kicks in, too bad that is in about a month and a half. oh well, not even good news can always be good. The wife is sick. That is bad for all here at this household. She gets a bit grouchy and emotional (which i guess go hand-in-hand).
On to the business of this title. I named this post what i named it because the wife told me to. I also find the title to be true. let's see... what else is happening in my world......
I don't know, i can't think i am too tired. work does that to me. plus, i did this post just a tad too late. but i am hanging with the hotness herself, so it all balances out in the end. Speaking of end....

Random Phrase: Happy Birthday! Now blow out all the candles on your birthday steak!

this will be short

I am pretty tired today. That is because i had a nightmare where my wife cheated on me. i had to wake her in order to have my clearly misguided fears destroyed. at work, i took it easy. I also ate lunch with my wifey today. I liked that. we ate at panera bread. I liked that too. the wife might get a day job eventually. I like that too. anyway, i am tired and will now end this blog. to make up for it, i will give you guys two random phrases, and yes that is random!

Random Phrases: 1) That was the most terrifying water i have ever heard! 2) Greetings Earthlings, it has been a long trip, take us to your toilet.

It won't work

Fumbling


my fingers loosely grasp what my heart says to firmly grip
running down the green field
the smell of grass
the taste of sweat
the feel of the ball
my hold is lost
my defeat laid out
plummeting to the ground
the sound, thud
my life has been wasted on a forgotten dream
a dream of lies.


That was just a nice little poem i just thought up. oh it is good to have inspiration back again. this is sort of my way of talking to God. I do not mind sharing it with others. Sometimes my poems are born out of love or hate, loss or gain, or even nothing at all. I just love writing it down. I feel like whenever i have written a poem down, I have accomplished something great, something to be cherished. Maybe i am just weird. Do you guys ever have something weird like that? A strange desire to do something, simply for the sake of doing it? Oh, and about the title, i didn't think it would work... this putting inspiration on the spot, but it did. I just gave it a chance to shine and it did. thanks inspiration. if any of you guys have a poem or writing that you would like to put up, do it. I do love to read poems and stuff. anyway, it is getting late and i am getting tired (funny how that works out). Goodnight all.

Random Phrase: Woman: A candlelit dinner would be nice. Man: I don't have any candles, how about a bunsen burner?

At Last!

I was praying to God last night and something happened that hasn't happened to me in some time. I got some inspiration for a poem. And here it is.

Suddenly before me

Behind these lies
are the curves of truth!
Deeply anchored, swaying
Parted only for the lives
of those that have come before
Cling to the design of fate
Climb your own path which was chosen for you
An Abyss from above, green shimmering light.
The smell of sulfur, the sound of war.
Never ceasing charts, maps
The eyes of greed always watching
The Golden Hope, evading us all
All but One.
Won for All.



I hope you all enjoyed. I am open to translations. Tell me what you think. Critics welcome. Now for the slow fade to black.... oh no this is the end.

Random Phrase: I have got to go to the bathroom.... to the Urination Station!!!!

i know what i said, but....

i know i said i was going to write more posts, and do it more often, but.... i am lazy. it is not an excuse but merely a statement of fact. this truth is such that few things are truer. I shall now list the things that are truer: God, Love, Vampire Themed things are really getting old, and education is very expensive. Now that i have gotten that out of my system, I do have an excuse for not having one up yesterday. I had carefully typed out a beautiful, expressive post of how wonderful yesterday was, but sadly i couldn't post it. I had tried to post it with my phone and, for reasons unknown (probably because of Satan or clowns), my phone would not post it. I couldn't even save it. I was so distraught that i chose not to re-write it but instead forget about it until today. (stupid clowns). anyway, here is a weak attempt at redoing my last, fabled post.

Yesterday was great. It was great for three reasons: Mexican food, the Greenville zoo, and of course the wife. I started out the day with great sleep. there is truly nothing in the world like great sleep. then the wife and i had breakfast and lounged about a bit (by "a bit" i mean a few hours) before going to the Mexican place that we had been eyeballing since we moved here. It is called Nazario's. Their food is divine (sorry God). The salsa was probably the best salsa i have ever had. I think they put an abundance of cilantro in it. I also had a Screwdriver. For all you overly cautious Christians out there, Jesus made wine and according to the Bible it was Good wine. Anyway, the drink was great. after the Mexican place we went to the zoo. It was a small zoo, but it was well taken care of, and the animals were mostly friendly. later that night the wife went out and got some sandwiches for dinner and i stayed home and played my life as a dark lord. I really like that game. I spent almost the entirety of the day with my wife (for some men that is a bad thing, but for me, well she is my best friend and i enjoy her company). Sorry this post is late, but i hope it finds happy eyes and warm hearts. I would like you to describe your perfect day. whether it has happened or not, i want to know. Thanks for reading, ba de ba de ba de ba de That's all folks.

Random Phrase: Dude, can't you tell people that you're a serial killer or something?

taking a break

taking a break can be awesome. i dont think i need to tell my audience that. i have been working hard these lase four weeks or so. i just needed a break from everything (except video games). last weekend i went to my in-laws' house. we ate out for almost every meal and watched alice in wonderland. i had a lot of fun and on monday, i went in 3 hours late. mostly because i didn't get back home until late, but whatever. the great part was that no one at work seemed to mind. anyway, i am back and will attempt to write one of these everynite.

random phrase: you want random? alnflagnlglsglsewrlnls794y9h35iughnguoerug'.'.;kgdsgiuerhlghnhnkltie8tuo4g'/f
g/ertosrg. was that random enough for ya?